I am satisfied

              Once I was sitting under the Devadaru tree in the lawn with a book resting in my lap. I was reading chapter three in the book. The Book was written by my Lord. It had a dusty hard cover in which the picture of the earth was embedded. It was my Lord’s 23456^th book and it covered everything about earth. A breeze tinged the tree and a multicolored flower fell on the page.

            The Devadaru tree bloomed rainbow flowers every day. We called Devadaru as Devu, our sweet Devu. The aroma of the flowers intoxicated the flora and fauna around. The verdure was in its eloquence. Devu was the nest of innumerable birds in this spot. The cheeping and chirping of the lovely birds filled the air with their innocence. These birds were not even found on earth and they didn’t have particular names. They were called as dolls, dolls with lustrous eyes and calico feathers fixed on their wings. You would get a bird’s eye view about the place if you could stand near Devu. She enchanted everyone with her unraveling beauty. There were other trees also seen around. It might look like other trees were surrounding Devu, like protecting her from Beelzebub.

           

             Abruptly, an irresistible fire sprouted in my heart. I just blinked my eyes, to make sure that it was only my anticipation. But it lasted after the moment too. I couldn’t shrug it off from my inner vision. Gradually I began to break down the components of my desire. I realized that it was there in me from the moment I reached here. Thus it wasn’t an abrupt entrance. I heard the inner sound whispering to me that ‘I want to return to the earth.’ It began to echo in my ears. I stood up frantically when an impulse stirred my body. I yearned for my desire. But I knew I couldn’t go back because my turns were over with the last life. I had to spend the whole time here, here in my Home.

          

              I had asked my Lord many times that I wish to return to earth. But he didn’t respond at all. He used to give a smile and walked away. Whenever my companion Rain came, I usually had this thought. But now, before his arrival, I had the desire to return to my mother. He used to fill my heart with the stories that were happening in the earth. He didn’t either stay back. But he could go whenever he wanted to. I decided to meet my Lord before the Rain comes.

         

              He was sitting on the other side of lawn. He was chanting mantra while his eyes were half open. Those mantras had an effect of enchanting one’s mind. I was becharmed by his mantras. I opened my eyes when I heard his sound. He smiled at me and said “good morning my child, why are you here?  ” I said nothing and stared at his elegant eyes. Again he asked “What made you come near me? Tell me.” Suddenly an urge struck my nerves and I said “My Lord, I want to go back to earth.” He didn’t utter a word for minutes. I stood there because I would like to get an answer for my question. After a few minutes, he came near me and said “I won’t let you go away from me my child”. In these words I felt the love of a father who never wanted his child to be away from him. “Because your turn is over and you are no longer suppose to touch the earth.” He said patting his hand upon my shoulder. My tears fell on his foot.

         

              I never gave him further time to speak a word. Within no seconds I returned to the old spot and sat under Devu. I couldn’t control myself, my tears wetted The Book. The Koel came near me and sang a lullaby. My eyes easily fell in love with sleep as I was exhausted. I woke when a drizzle started to dance in the lawn. I stood up and looked for my companion Rain. I couldn’t find him, but his friends were here. ‘Where is he?’ I was frequently asking this question to myself. I sat there for almost an hour and waited. He didn’t come. I just closed my eyes and thought about him. I drew his picture from my memory. It was more than a year now. He was a gentle man with a beard that was made of water drops. It always astonished me. I never missed a chance to touch his soft watery beard. When he would become angry, drops would fall from his beard. It was the only time we could see drops drooping from his beard. 
           
              A cool breeze gently touched my cheeks. I opened my eyes and I felt the fragrance of soil, the first rain. I turned around and saw his radiant face in its wonder. He just gave me a smile like dropping flowers over me. He came near and carried me in his hands. He said “My sweet heart I missed you like hell. I want you to be with me every time.” I stared at his eyes and said “missed you too.” He placed me in a grassy cushion and glanced at me. He asked “Why are you looking so sad my love?” I remembered that he was the only person who could take me back to earth. He was a magician, who could change anything into rain drops. ‘Will he do that? I don’t know. If he wouldn’t…’ I talked to myself. His voice thrust me “What happened? Tell me dear.”

With a hesitation I said “I want to go back to earth.” He said “something was worrying you. But you know it is infinitely impossible at this moment and you know the reason.”

“I know I can do that. But turning you in to a drop will result in your complete death. Even in this way, you will not exist. I can’t change you back into a human soul if you reach the earth. The moment you reach the earth, you will die… not like the death before. And do you think the aftereffects when He comes to know about this. If it fails…” He said in low voice.

“I want to go to earth. I don’t want to hear anything. Just do it. Otherwise I won’t stay here. You know that very well. Do it if you can. Change me into drops so that I accompany you till my Death. I am happy to receive the Death. I will die in the lap of my mother and you will be with me”

“Dear, I can’t bare that. Seeing your death, how will I survive?”

“I am always with you, will always with you. I am dissolving in your soul and how will I die. As long as you live, I will also live. Only a drop shall touch the earth. The rest of my soul is with you. So that I shall become the real companion in your whole life. Please turn me to a drop dear.”

“In a way, it is right. But…”

“There is no place for but's…please.”

“Yes. I shall do it for you, for your happiness. I don’t care about the consequences.”

            He cantillated mantras and in a minute I changed into a colorless water drop and dissolved in his soul. He flew away from our Home towards earth. When the distance decreased for our destination, his heart pounded deeply. I could feel it, felt the way it was beating. His love protected me from the rays of sun. From here, I could see the earth like a mixture of green and blue spot. My mother was calling me, calling me towards her. I wish I could reach there within a spur.

          

            At last I entered the blue sky with him. I touched the green soft leaves in the trees of my mother. Slowly I met my mother and she hugged me tightly with her soft arms, with layers of soil. A part of I, died in her lap in a fraction of seconds. The rest was with my Rain. The moment I died in the lap of my mother earth was the most blissful moment of my life. I didn’t know how all these happened. It stood as a mystery for me and we moved to other world from earth…and the journey went on. I whispered in the ears of Rain “I am satisfied, I am satisfied.”